AIN'T ABOUT ME
You're lookin' hard as you walk away
Well what the Hell am I suppose to say?
It isn't like you
It isn't like you at all
'Cause you're the type you can take a lot
Never doubting the girl you got
But now you're walkin'
I see you're walkin' away
Well maybe I could be
Let's see a...
A little nicer?
A little warmer?
It won't be like me
Won't be like me at all
'Cause I'm the type who can dish it out
I used to think that's what love's about
But it ain't like that
It ain't like that at all
No it's about all this give and take
To care for others in this life you make
It ain't about me
Ain't about me at all
And Maybe I could be
Let's see a...
Alittle nicer?
Alittle warmer?
It won't be like me
Won't be like me at all
And maybe that's just the way it goes
You walk away and then some one like me grows
Into some one you could know
Won't be like me
It won't be like me at all
But that's all right
That's okay
About time for me
Anyway
Ain't about me
Ain't about me at all
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RESTLESS
I am walking down these
streets I knew from childhood
Where I dreamed we lived a lifetime
But I have found the wrong house
Can't find the child I used to be
And as far as I get
Can't put a finger on it
Let's get up and go
To where I don't know
Let's move away
To where I can't say
I just feel restless
Doors with ivy growing up the walls and climbing
Through these memories haunting me
But I am missin' in this
Can't find the child I once was
Can't find the house I lived in
Can't find myself within this
Ain't About Me
You're lookin' hard as you walk away
Well what the Hell am I suppose to say?
It isn't like you
It isn't like you at all
'Cause you're the type you can take a lot
Never doubting the girl you got
But now you're walkin'
I see you're walkin' away
Well maybe I could be
Let's see a...
A little nicer?
A little warmer?
It won't be like me
Won't be like me at all
'Cause I'm the type who can dish it out
I used to think that's what love's about
But it ain't like that
It ain't like that at all
No it's about all this give and take
To care for others in this life you make
It ain't about me
Ain't about me at all
And Maybe I could be
Let's see a...
Alittle nicer?
Alittle warmer?
It won't be like me
Won't be like me at all
And maybe that's just the way it goes
You walk away and then some one like me grows
Into some one you could know
Won't be like me
It won't be like me at all
But that's all right
That's okay
About time for me
Anyway
Ain't about me
Ain't about me at all
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SICK
I've been wondering to myself
Is it any wonder I can't guess?
There seems to be a problem here
That has made me such a mess
And I'm sick of it
I'm sick of being anxious from so many,
many things I see
I'm sick of it
That I am literally sick from it
There's got to be a better way to live
'Cause why am I my own best victim?
When I make my own regrets
Why do I live like life's a test?
With an "A" for me to get
'Cause I'm sick of it
I'm sick of being weighed down by so many,
many fears I feel
I'm sick of it
There must be something more
Where's the fire?
Why the rush?
Where is love?
A gentle touch?
Put the tea on
Hug the cat
Slowin' down now
Cause I've had enough
Of that
And there's the prom I never went to
With that dress I never wear
Or the wave I never have the time to ride
Well sometimes my friends call me
From the middle of their lives
But I'm too busy suffering through my own
And I'm sick of it
I'm sick of being jaded by so many,
many things I hear
I'm sick of it
There must be something more for me
Where's the mountain?
And why the push?
Why the pie sky?
I've had enough
I'll let my cat in
And call my friends
And hold on tightly
To those I love and
Watch the sun sets and the ants crawl
Watch the moon rise and the paint dry
Watch a sea breeze touch the rainfall
Watch the grass grow
While I let go
While I let go
While I let go...
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WHEN WE ARE
It rained today
And my car finally got a bath
We went to dinner
And I found I made you laugh
With this attraction,
I worry 'bout the passion rolling over me
Wonderin' how I'll be
When we are holding hands
When we are making future plans
When we are locked in an embrace
When I am worshipping your face
When I am tossed inside
From thinkin', "Who the Hell am I?"
When you are movin' through my soul
From my head down to my toes
Once upon a time
For somewhere I was at
I had an emptiness
Some said looked rather sad
No one to "get",
With little to regret
But now I'm hot to go,
To somewhere I don't know
Where we are holding hands...
Diving off a ledge I fall
But at least I feel alive
Diving off a ledge I fall
But at least I feel alive
At least I fall alive
I fall alive
(I fall alive)
I fall alive
(I fall alive)
I fall alive
When we are holding hands...
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HELL TO PARADISE
Lost inside a hazy day
Sleepy-eyed and half alive
Well I've lived alone and it ain't enough
I've gotta find someone to love
So here I sit in my lazy chair
Kickin' back to shake my blues
I've got nothin' to lose
'Cause when the time is right
I know that I
Will find the love
That's passed on the rise
From Hell to paradise
Well I once thought I was in love
With a man I thought looked good enough
But he held mean-streak in his eyes
With crisp burnt words on a plate of lies
So when I ran, I ran for me
With freedom on my wings
And the flight that freedom brings
I said when the time is right...
'Cause when I've found that place
And when I've found that man
I know I'll have
My finest hour at hand
Well I've climbed mountains high enough
I've been abused, thought it was love
But I want some one to finally see
When I'm the best I'll ever be
Some one to take me as I am
Through thick and thin without goodbyes
To Paradise
From Hell to paradise
Hell to paradise
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NO HANDS
Sliding away
Playgrounds and climbing in trees
Take to the sky in a swing
Or jump in some leaves
But the rain falls down
It's casting a gloom
Let it all end real soon
Away, chase all these clouds away
And mommy, come see me
No hands, no hands
Mommy, come watch me
You're busy
You're tired
You're walking away
But where have you gone?
I'll keep a light on
Decades have passed
Now that I'm a mother I've found
While pushing my child in a swing
On the playground
When she calls me "mom"
I see myself, lonely, dragging around
Away, chase all these feelings away
And mommy, come see me
No hands, no hands
Mommy, come watch me
You're busy
You're tired
You're looking away
But where did you go?
I'll keep the lights on, you know
'Cause walking away
Is playing it safe
And I've sure done my part
To try not
To pull at the strings of your heart
So Mommy, come see me
No hands, no hands
Mother forgive me
I'm sorry for all of the years slipped away
'Cause you did your best, I know
I'll keep a light on
I'll keep a light on
I'll keep it waiting for us to come home
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BREATHE
Love her more than words
You love her more than anything
You love her like the life
You once had in younger times
Well lost clocks
You're gettin' old
Beat the drums inside your chest
Can't turn back, ignore the rest
Turn your eyes inside then
Breathe in Life
Breathe in all of this
Breathe in life
Into emptiness
Some one says your name
Moaning on the beat of night
Hits the walls and hits your head
Reachin' out from left to right
While you're in the worst of it
Seize the hole inside your head
And fill it up with all you've left
Fill it up with light
Then
Breathe in life
Breathe in all of this
Breathe in life
Into emptiness
Breathe new life
Let it go and then
Breathe new life
Into you
Time
Time
Livin' for the time
The time
The time
Livin' for the time
You breathe in life
Breathe in all of this
Breathe in life
Into emptiness
Breathe new life
Let it go and then
Breathe new life
Into you
*****************************************
IF I SAY
I am looking for the details
in the way you look at me
As I gather up some courage
and I scrap my dignity
Angling up a breezeway
I am higher than a kite
You have pushed me to a limit
and I'm just about to bite
Where forever go the ways of your heart?
If I say, you're amazing
If I say the words aloud
If I say you're the reason
I've been living on a cloud
If I say you're the love of my life
The reason I breathe
Would you believe me?
I've been prayin' for a release
And I've been looking for a sign
I've been hoping you will quiet all
the nerves that grip my mind
Living through a phase
While my head's been numb for days
Watch you through a restaurant window
In the park or on the go
Where forever go the ways of your heart?
If I say...
'Cause I can't sleep, I can't begin
to count those sheep
When every sheep begins to look like you
Been wide awake because there's
so much left unsaid
And I can't change the reckless speed
of thoughts inside my head
If I say...
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BEGINS AGAIN
Quiet evening with a soft moonlight
Single woman on a humid night
Holds a memory of how she felt
Dancing with him in a samba spell
The coolness of the evening breeze
An outdoor dance thru swaying trees
She feels the rhythm that she felt with him
If only she could have that dance again
But in her past
She finds him waiting for her
Dancing with her in the dark
As she's moving
She is feeling once again
Her midnight world
Where love begins again
So many moons have passed since first she learned
He'd leave her out here, never to return
Though many others have passed through her floor
No one's had the same appeal for her
Cause in her past...
Solo dancing in a dreamy mood
She's not alone, she's just misunderstood
As long as she can hold his memory near
She dreams he never really left her here
Cause in her past
She'll find him waiting for her
Dancing with her in the dark
As she's moving
She is feeling once again
Her midnight world
Where love begins again
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SCATTERED SHOWERS
Scattered Showers on the way
Windward side down by the lake
Hazy hue, mixed with morning shades of blue
While all the time I find that you're
a little bit like
Scattered showers on the way
Scattered showers everyday
Scattered Showers
Scattered feelings in the forecast
I guess I'm cringing when I sense this
Nimbus mixed with momentary happiness
Mr. Rochester, am I Jane Eyre when you are like
Scattered showers on the way
Scattered showers everyday
Scattered Showers
Cause it's hard to catch a cloud
Even when it sits around
Waiting for the wind to move along
But I cannot capture it
It evaporates before I know it
And rolls away to rain on some new town
Scattered showers on the way
Scattered showers everyday
Scattered Showers
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PERFECT DREAM
I've watched you from the fringe of nowhere
Cause "nowhere"s where I've been for half my life
I can paste a smile but all the while
Knowing that inside I live a lie
And I watched you like I know you
But I haven't got a clue
I'm living for my perfect Dream of You
And You're driving with the top down
While the wind blows through your hair
We are on a highway somewhere else
So far away from here
When you say "I love you, really love you
Couldn't bare to live
Without you"...
I see you on an elevator
But I can't bear to say a single word
So I'll stare at walls or at the floors
Or anywhere but you, I am absurd
But I can see your profile
From a sideways point of view
I'm falling for my perfect dream of you
And you're driving with the top down...
Blah, blah
Wake up, wake up
Blah, blah
it isn't true
Blah, blah
Wake up from my perfect dream of you
(Dreamer, dreamer)
I dream that if I trip and fall
That you'll be there to catch me if I did
That I can hold your hand or touch your face
And when hug our bodies always fit
As I'm staring off to nowhere,
But it's such a lovely view
I've fallen for my perfect dream of you
As you're driving with the top down...
Blah, blah
Wake up, wake up
Blah, blah
it isn't true
Blah, blah
Wake up from my perfect dream of you
*****************************************
SKY FATHER
We were driving through South Dakota
While thunderheads formed in the sky
And I held in my hands, an Indian doll
From a Sioux reservation nearby
I stared at the delicate beadwork
While lightening lights formed in the air
A strange kind of peace on her passionless face
Gave a feeling she'd rather be where...
The sky was
The sky was the father
The earth was
The earth was the mother
But I looked at my skin, freckled and burned
Never tan from what I recall
I was a little white girl in her pale, blue dress
Who envied her Indian doll
And as we drove through Custer State Park
My father remembered the many who'd died
Who spoke about massacred soldiers
While I thought of the natives who'd died
For the sky and
The sky and their fathers
The earth and
The earth and their mothers
While the ghosts of a thousand
Dance and chant in vain
While they whirl like dust upon the barren plains
Oh Father
Sky Father
Oh Mother
Earth Mother
ALL SONGS WRITTEN BY CHERYL FOSTER
COPYRIGHT 2009
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
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